lifestyle surrendered centered faithful focus sinfulin past life we've become closest eyes are wide opencurse has been broken immersed in your person, truth has been spoken
why's this feeling here again? I really don't like it... It makes me think I can't do anything, I can't love anybody, I can't pass my exams when I know I can. Disgusting.
I always say it all's because of him. But I'm not sure about it.. Maybe I haven't even gotten this over.
Maybe I have. Maybe it's just good to me to tear up the scars.. maybe I just can't wash my memories out.. Or maybe it fucks me up that he feels good in his perfect new life with his perfect new family.. that he doesn't even give a damn if we're okay. If his daughter's okay. IF WE LIVE!

How was your holiday, by the way? Did you enjoy? Were the Turkish polite? Or were they agressive? Was everything okay with the journey? I hope so

Did you get sunburnt? I hope so
Did you catch some virus? I hope so
Did you run out of money? I hope so
Did you lose your privilege? I hope so
Do you feel sick? I hope so
Do you have remorse? I fucking hope so...

You know I don't mean it. But I mean it.
You know me as I'm a polite, sensitive girl.
I am. But during the years with you, I became a strong, certain and determinate woman.
I hope you can get it. I hope you know I have goals, but there's no pront about keeping connection with you. 

I'll carry off my plans. I'll forget that I've ever known you.
I'll forget what you've done.
I'll forget that you've forgotten me.
And do not even try to find me again. I don't need you. I fucking don't need you.

Damn it's true..

still walk the same walk but a different shoe